what's next?!

im not even sure how much more of this that i can take. it's my senior year and im suppost to be having a good time and enjoying my last year in high school. When in reality, im stuck crying over some stupid boy that somehow ended up meaning a little too much to me. the worst part of it all is i mean nothing to him. he could careless about me. how come i always fall for the players, jerks and losers? its bad when i check my phone every five seconds hoping that its his name that i see. i want to text him so bad but im scared that he will be a jerk and hurt my feelings and just make everything a million times worse then it already is. & then everyone is telling me 'felecia you can do so much better' but he makes me smile, he gives me butterflys, & i liked how it felt to have his arms wrapped around me. but im going to let god handle this, he knows whats best for me, right? whatever is ment to happen, will happen.